Chapter 19: Mistaken for Something Worse
Sunlight slammed into my face, pummeling me back to human, or mostly human. Opening my eyes, I winced and rolled my face to the west to stare at nothing for a while, then decided that I’d better move before someone reported a corpse on the shore. I found some thick reeds without too much mud and decided to pass out here for a proper nap.
When the dark purple of the sky finally died in blackness I climbed away from the shore to fields and paused at a highway lined with private homes set far apart, giving me plenty of darkness between lit windows. Studying the road signs, I saw that Quebec City was close at hand to my east: a radioactive pit of old Catholic energy that I wouldn’t be testing for many decades yet, I decided.
How many dozens of streets named after saints, how many Virgin Maries? The sewers alone probably sloshed with holy water. It occurred to me that I was also near the site of a famous battle on the Plains of Abraham, inside a park in Quebec City but maybe once extending into areas that were now built over, making it tricky to avoid. Extrapolating from Eddy’s cross, there would be a host of restless spirits warding that place against the likes of me, maybe rival generals Wolfe and Montcalm together. That city, ancient for the Americas, burned and repelled me like the dawn even when I was beyond the sight of it.
North then, as the summer’s heat grew, as hunters in the south might regroup and reorganize or at least wait. Maybe the species I had recently just joined didn’t care too much for bastards. I wasn’t strong in French, but even I knew what Pont Rouge meant, and that was the next city to be blighted by my presence. Population 8700.
Another stack of ribbon farms took me past Highway 40 and then through thickening pines south of Pont Rouge, the night’s moon full this night and only a few clouds giving me cover. I could be seen and feared at a distance.
Already these woods were very good, full of small game, reacting to me in a ring of scurrying panic when I deliberately cracked a twig. A young chipmunk was the vampiric equivalent of a candy bar, husked in seconds.
The diamond ring on my right pinky finger still had a lot of miserable ‘blood’ in some transubstantiated form, able to feed me just as Catholic bread could hurt me, but I had to be careful with it – that was an emergency reserve, I decided, and I would need to think up a system for using it safely. Every time I took a hit from the blood diamond it was knocking me out, which invited the risk of getting stuck and overdosing myself to death – I had to assume it was possible to die that way. Dropping the ring with the diamond-point into one finger would give short contact, and I supposed I would have to get a stopwatch and determine how long that short touch left me dazed.
In Pont Rouge a Tim Hortons and an IGA with few cars under the lot lamps were followed by an extended line of odd shops down a curvy main street, and as the stores closed and interior lights darkened it was finally time for me to shop. Hovering at the threshold of back exits (I would need to dress and groom a lot to blend in public), I discovered that some places open to the public are not defended to me by guardians. A padlock couldn’t stop me, and some high windows weren’t even closed. The IGA first gave me some bloody meat that I sucked dry and grey at once and, handling carefully, I took a clove of garlic wrapped in three plastic bags. This was playing with fire, but if one of the things I faced in the coming nights wasn’t a Deer Woman or a trickster Rabbit but another vampire that might be worth something.
Taking my time to glide soundlessly through the darkened store with a single toe skimming the tile and only the red SORTIE lights overhead, I scanned for anything else that might give me a small tingling or burning sensation. Near the garlic the lemons didn’t feel good, so I took one. The rice didn’t make me stop to count every grain, happily. In an aisle that smelled powerful of curries my eyes started watering and I traced the issue to a box of something called ‘vark’, which was extremely fine silver foil. According to the picture it could be used as sprinkles or as a candy coating. It was just the kind of introductory amount I needed, being so ridiculously thin.
Maple syrup, strangely enough, was another one. Uncorking a little to sniff, just the residue on the top of the glass hurt worse than the holy water in the river. I had passed by plenty of maple trees so far without issue, but this was concentrated stuff. In the bag it went.
Tea of some kinds … scanning the contents, it might have been holly. I took a clump of teabags using protective plastic, which seemed to kill a lot of the negative effect. I’d daydream (or nightdream) about some plastic armor.
Every rose gave me a similar tinge of discomfort, the points of the thorns and the petals seeming to bear tiny pinpricks of light like the pupils of a sundog. This bag was getting heavier than its mass dictated, so I only took one to examine.
Bags of potato chips, of course. Along with most of the canned soups. I took one of each.
Running by the meat again and looking deeper, there was indeed some bloody meat that did not seem appetizing to me at all, in two flavors: kosher, and halal. I decided to leave that stuff, though I claimed some of the butcher’s knives.
Finally, before leaving the grocery, the rack of sunglasses also gave me a buzz, probably from silver in the lens, an irony since I would absolutely want to keep light out of my eyes. I’d bite this bullet, and picked a particularly offensive pair with square lenses.
After leaving the IGA and leaving my bag of noxious goods on a rooftop I slowly twisted a locked door to enter a SAQ – the Quebec LCBO – with more intent to explore than to take. I realized that pretty much all gin was nasty stuff, the entire aisle of it blurred to me, almost making me crash into the vodkas. Which was a shame, since I had enjoyed gin occasionally as a human. The fruity alcoholic drinks with lemon were also radiating a harmful aura to me – so it looked like you could process some of the repellents without losing their effect. That was good to know – I was starting to toy with an idea of what to do with the IGA haul.
Turning headlights lit up the SAQ store not long after I entered. I had probably tripped a silent alarm. I slipped into darkness and then crawled to a window on the roof like a gecko when a flashlight swept the room from an officer peering inside, flexing to pop out the glass pane and even setting it back. I don’t think the alarm there was triggered, but I’d have to get better at this.
It was much harder to move so gracefully as I dragged the bad of repellents over to the next stop, which was tucked away down a dark side street without lamps overhead. I stashed my goods high in a willow tree that hung over most of the barren lot. I needed clothes and boots and a backpack, and this thrift store looked promising.
But I should have known better – I should have known that a collection of so many old and cherished things would not go unattended.
The tutelary got me with the old flashlight trick as I peered into the dark glass, where of course I had no reflection. An old woman’s wrinkled face popped into existence nose to nose with me.
“Ah,” I said.
“Ha,” she said, grinning with oddly small teeth. And a trinket was snatched up to hold me back, pressing against the window and shining with its own firefly light. My blurring vision saw a wooden hoop supporting a net of fine strings with dangling beads below.
It was not a hit, not as strong as Jean-Claude’s icons; this was a more relentless wind, yanking back at my tattered clothes and knots of unkempt hair. Peering ahead through squinting eyes, my vision was being drawn and funneled, luring me into …
“Oh, dreamcatcher.” I recognized the strands in the wooden hoop from my earlier encounter with the Micmac hunters, and tore my eyes away. The thickening of the air that I remembered from the point of that trap had also started, the air turning to molasses and then crawling down my throat, but this effect also vanished away once I was able to take my eyes out of the dreamcatcher’s center. As before, the weapon wasn’t delivering its proper punch. As if it were made for a slightly different target.
The old woman with a flashlight under her face frowned, and the dreamcatcher’s glow dimmed. I had retreated a pace but the repulsive effect was spent for now, though I held my position, staring back.
Finally, she said, “Tu n’es pas un windeego?”
Of course. The wards used by Micmacs and other tribes had another monster in mind. Raccoon Man had not liked me using the name, and I suddenly I had another reason to be looking over my shoulder in this wilderness. Wendigos … damn. I’d rather tussle with werewolves.
“Ah, je suis un … vampire.”
“Anglais,” she scoffed, and this seemed to upset her more than my unclean nature. “Anglais et jeune.”
“Pantalons … chemise … all clothes, I guess. Boots?”
“Bottes,” she corrected, stuffing away her dreamcatcher. “Patienter!”
“And a backpack,” I added.
A few minutes later the shop’s wooden door unlocked, and the screen door in front opened. The crone peered out and wagged a summoning finger.
“Pick sizes.”
I stayed put for a while, noticing that there was an unused cross hanging around the spirit’s neck. She seemed to be a proper ghost as I studied her in full, interacting with objects like the door but having a misty complexion, with all the details save her face somewhat blurred. But what I gathered suggested that she was old, for I’ve only seem Amish people in similar clothes. I guessed that she was both a Christian and a native, perhaps an old Metis woman who had died long ago and continued her labors at this store.
“Is this out of the kindness of your own heart, or is there some magical clause about clothing the naked and feeding the hungry?” If so, I’d be hitting thrift stores more frequently than my hoarder mom.
“Not a windeego. Long time since anyone come, white or black in spirit, and guests are guests. Come in. Only backpack is pink.”
Standing in the cramped vestibule of the silent shop, a dim place even in the day that was now dark and dusty and lined with old photographs on the walls and filled with the smell of indoor smokers, I obediently let her bring out stacks for me to search through. I decided not to cross a fine line that I perceived as a ghostly cut in the floorboards past the cash register, where the aisles of shelves and racks of discount clothing began. I had only been invited so far in.
The pink backpack was still big enough for an adult; several pairs of jeans were just long enough for my legs, and she even dug out some boots that had steel toes, nice and tough for the paces I would put them through. She turned away and hummed when I changed, finally removing the tatters of the clothes I had last worn as a human, which could now only go in the trash. I picked out shirts and underwear without much thought, cramming them in the backpack.
Also without much thought, I took the diamond ring off my pinky and held it out to the apparition. She actually hissed at it.
“Tabernac!”
“Sorry. Actually, while I have someone to spot me … I’m going to bounce this off my palm, and let it fall to the floor. Can you count how long I’m out for?”
The Metis woman’s ghost now put her hands on her hips and looked ready to scold me, one hip passing through the corner of the table that held the cash register. “Pick it up afterward,” she finally said.
I took another hit off the blood diamond. Someone spun the room around me and smacked the floor up into my face.
I came back to consciousness in the same pose, in the same place, face mushed into gritty brown carpeting marked by pawprints and boot prints. But I was full of blood, sloshing with it, ruddy with it, feeling like a kid with a sugar high fighting to hold still.
“Maybe … three minutes.” She was leaning down and in my ear, and I actually felt two wispy fingers on my throat.
“Wait, do I still have a pulse?” I tried to find it on myself and failed.
“Young.” She scoffed, but it sound like she was suppressing a laugh. “I put other stuff in backpack. Pick up that.” The tutelary stabbed a finger down to guide me to the fallen diamond ring. I complied, putting the ring back on my finger and picking up the pink backpack. Cramming in the groceries hidden in the tree would take careful packing.
“Very young. Spirits still over your shoulder. Two and two, your grandmothers and grandfathers.”
I had nothing to say to that. All of my grandparents were dead – one before I could remember anything except the funeral, the others in the last ten years. If they were monitoring me after death then I said some serious reconsidering to do, living or undead.
“Thanks for everything. If I return I’ll donate something less … tabernac.”
The Metis woman’s ghost folded her arms, and her annoyed face was suddenly cold, the eyes staring wide. “You go home, in west, to city of your grandmother, make her spirit happy. North is not good, you have no watcher like me. We can watch only humans, and your grandmothers and -fathers can only watch, not help. If you keep going north you will die. Even summer is not safe. Windeego power come and go like your type. Strongest in winter, weakest in summer, but never sleep. Always hungry. No further north. You hear voice in woods like grandmothers or -fathers, it is not them. No matter what they say.”
Frozen with one knee down on the creaking boards, I was scared. Not delirious and defiant and ready to laugh it off and die in a fight, or after a fit of reckless exercise. Even without a flashlight under her chin she was giving the horror story lines very convincingly.
“I’ll … I’ll do that. Ignore any voices, and stick south.” I’d have to figure out a way to minimize bumping into hunters, guardians or my own kind. I got up and put on the pink backpack.
“Any place you went to in life, that you were invited into, that is still yours.”
My personal, selfish fear turned to scrambling worry. Despite the usefulness of this advice I didn’t want to go home or even close to home. Those instincts that sometimes made me absolutely certain of things told me that if other vampires knew who I was, or had been, if they knew who my two brothers and parents were … well, what wouldn’t vampires do? And tutelaries didn’t always succeed.
“Thanks. Thanks for everything. Can I-“
“Marie Pleurd.” And she curtsied, a late introduction as old as her clothing.
“I’ll come back here,” I promised. “With a fresh pink backpack.”
“Yes, or maybe.” She smiled, sad and annoyed at once. She closed her eyes and took a long sniff of the air. “You have to go now. Blood in your gem is bright. Bright in the dark of the woods. Makes you bright, long after. Don’t be bright and still for very long.”
These last words made the fear nice and selfish all over again. I bowed and then stumbled out of there, banging the screen door, jogging over to my groceries and scrambling to fit everything into the pack. Now I knew: the night up here was not mine to rule. I had slipped into these northern woods with confidence but they were patrolled by things that came to blood like sharks, even in the summer. They would come for blood locked away in the diamond that could now be taken.
Taken out of me.
Pont Rouge ended the northern hike. Unable to stick to roads with all the shrines and accident memorials, I’d be walking southwest through fields and woods, listening for a mockingly familiar voice, scanning the broken horizon for a tree trunk that suddenly moved. It didn’t occur to me that the old lady was lying to kick me out of her territory – my new instincts said that there was no hope of that.
I wasn’t alone out here.
Chapter 20: Scale of Hardness
Image credits: Sylvain Brousseau, Matej Braha, Gozitano, Canadian Forestry Association